One Big joke.

When you die, some say, your whole life flashes before your eyes like a movie. I imagine seeing it as if I am watching a home video filmed by my guardian angel. just like the ones of me as a child, stumbling around, running into things, getting hurt. life is still like that, my whole life has been me stumbling around trying to figure things out. Since birth it seems I have flouted about like a retarded jellyfish, a bull in a china shop. This video would be one I think to be laughed at for eternity. my joke to present to god, in his court, as his jester. We are all fools I am sure. and as my life flashes by I would note I am likely not the biggest of the fools that just maybe, maybe, I did some things right. And when all my scores are tallied and my soul weighed if I deserve to fall into a fire abyss all I would say in my defense is, "oops", not that it would make a difference, nothing would. I hope my judgement day still lies far in my future, but I plan from here on in to make my life exciting to watch and easy to laugh at. Hopefully god has a sense of humor. Hopefully my life is just one big joke.