Finding time to breath is not always easy

Our complicated lives can be smashed into a million pieces in one instant
like -
a broken vase
its shards scattered on the floor
and flowers lying still, drenched by the shrapnel.
Moments like that you hold your breath and wait at the bottom to explode
hoping-
that on the way up you will have an epiphany,
maybe you will reach the surface and feel the sun and have hope,
praying you wont get caught beneath the ice and drown in sorrow.

We may feel the pains of the past flutter back to us with razor wings-
stabbing and scrapping our lungs.
puncturing our hot air balloon and dragging us down to earth and reality.
causing us to stop and admit, it hasdidmightcouldwill-happen. . .
and leave us feeling hopeless and caught in despair.

Sometimes you have to muster every bit of strength you have to heave in oxygen-
to take a deep deep breath and calm down.
Breath so deep and so long you can feel the very planet exhale before you do.
But in your exhale you let go of all that is weighing you down-
pain
sorrow
despair
the weight on your shoulders that you no longer can bear,
nor should you have to-
Because there is a limit to how many years you have to carry your sins.

once and a while everyone deserves to take a breath-
Finding the time to is not always easy.