This cant be my world

This cannot be my world
a fishbowl upturned onto the flat of a table
the water slowly seeping out
all the fish broken into panic
no
   no
       again no
not my world

I feel like a toddler on a trike who just ran into a wall
that he had never known existed ever before
that kind of realization
                                  crushes
I cant go on here
                         I need a way out
                       no
a way in
            to my world
a place where everyone is different
and barriers don't break my path
                                                  every time daylight breaks
someday I will get there
                                    until then I suppose
I'll just pace the cage.